This is a perfect description of my life right now.
Luckily for me, I have this thing called foresight. I happen to know quite well how alcohol affects me, and because I happen to be pinning for a certain boy, I know I should not be drinking. But unfortunately I happen to know equally well how boredom affects me, and right now I have 6 hours before I have to be anywhere and a very silent cell phone with Said Boy's phone number sitting right there, taunting me. Now, Said Boy does not have my phone number anymore so I have finally stopped getting that butterfly feeling when I get a text message, thinking beyond hope he's contacted me. Sad, but that's a step in the right direction.
I realize some people might want to slap me for saying this, but at 24 this is the first time I've been left. I was the one to do the leaving in my 2 relationships and because it took me for-freaking-ever to come to the decision both times, when I actually did it I was already kind of over it. So I have to say I feel a little heartbroken this time. Just when I'm starting to get some significantly strong feelings for Said Boy it's over. Which makes me sad all day. Plus, because I quit my job, now I don't even have the ridiculously young but ridiculously good looking boys to look at anymore. Sigh.
Hence, bored and missing Said Boy makes for an awkward post.
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