The most beautiful Kizuwanda, who I miss terribly.
Whatever you want to call it- redefining your life after a major break-up, turning another year older, getting laid off and rediscovering your passion- I've started to evaluate my life, values and aspirations. Somehow I feel more adult these last several weeks, more woman than girl, and more responsible for my actions.
In the corporate world I learned that I don't thrive inside, in heels and dress pants, at a computer underneath fluorescent lighting. I was often sick with sniffles and sore throats, shivered in AC during beautiful La Jolla summer afternoons and went home tired and unmotivated. I was unhappy and, suddenly aware of my waning job security, I searched.
Who knows how long I'd have stayed in office jobs, growing increasingly miserable. I'm incredibly grateful to have not only gotten a job working outdoors but with animals in an organization dedicated to conservation (for this I will be forever grateful to UCSD for having one of the most advanced student-run transportation systems in universities). Even though now I'm removed from animals I'm still so excited and happy to go to work each day. And I'm not completely removed from animals: mule deer love our hillside; dozens of lorikeets are only a few steps away; I have a new perspective on the animals I befriended and watch them from my perch.
Working at the Park has reawakened my need to continue learning; I can't imagine being happier than learning about animals and the world we live in. I can't wait to be a guide, to learn new things and teach them to others. I'm kicking myself now for not pursuing EATM or biology. I'm apprehensive about starting over, making the jump from literature to biology, but it's something I feel strongly about; I don't think I'll be satisfied with "just" a bachelor's degree. Even though I recognize that to get where I want I don't necessarily need more formal education, and I'm in the very fortunate position of being able to learn as I do, my personal goals are more than that. I'm pretty excited for the next few years.